Where do I begin, when I have so much to say?
I just left my primary care doctor's office. I was going on another matter but had a question. As you'll see in the words to follow, I have some mighty radical opinions and ideas. However, I wanted to know his opinion as a medical professional on one of them.
"I think the kids and I had the Carona Virus weeks ago. When no one was really paying attention." I explained our symptoms, how long it lasted and that we had been asymptomatic for weeks now. He is thus far the only one I have presented the idea to, that undoubtedly agrees, it is very likely. Now of course, there is nothing to be done. No way to confirm or deny what passed through our family was Carona Virus but he did think that our community had already been exposed to an extent not yet recognized.
Three years ago I had a dream. It was so profound to me at the time I shared it with almost anyone who would listen, trying to find understanding and clarity.
Three years ago my life was much different. Three years ago I was a married woman. A homeschooling, stay-at-home, military spouse and foster mother. Who had lost herself completely. I had no idea who I was. I knew who Jesus was though and I lived by that.
Three years ago I was in a failing marriage with an angry man. I was lost and burned out and completely unaware of how my life was about to completely change forever.
Anyhow, I had a dream- January 2017. In the dream, I was in an office building in Seattle, on a top floor. To my right side I had a view of the Seattle skyline. From that viewpoint, I saw a flash of white light and waves of energy coming toward me. As I saw the waves coming, I understood clearly that I and everyone with me were dead. I began to pray, "Lord receive my spirit". At that moment I heard (with my ears not my heart) "Ezekiel 5:9".
I woke up at that moment. I prayed and went back to sleep. The next morning I couldn't wait to look up Ezekiel 5:9. I felt so sure it would be relevant to the imagery. I believed that very morning and to this very day believe that dream was from God. However, I was ill prepared for the words on that page.
Ezekiel 5:9 New International Version (NIV)
9 Because of all your detestable idols, I will do to you what I have never done before and will never do again.
Over the three years that followed that dream became a memory. I referenced it with people every so often as things would happen in my life to make me wonder what it might have meant. I had thought the white light I saw in the dream was an atomic bomb.
I can't begin to cover what all occurred for me personally in the three years between that dream and today. Everything has changed. The life I knew and the future I was certain of.... Gone.
I suspect Americans are about to feel the same way.
Don't get me wrong. I'm not panicking and I'm not intending to induce panic. I know the truth and promises of God and I've grown confident in the woman I am in him. He provides ALL my needs and he rewards those who diligently seek him. He is my refuge and I walk by faith not by sight. I yet rejoice at this trial because God is sovereign and His plan prevails, his name will be glorified and his purposes will be served. He works ALL things for the GOOD of those who LOVE Him and are called according to HIS purposes (emphasis mine).
All of that being said, I believe this Coronavirus is just the white light. The coming horror will be a slow burn. It's the waves that are coming after it that are going to be catastrophic.
James 4:8-10 New International Version (NIV)
8 Come near to God and he will come near to you. Wash your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded. 9 Grieve, mourn and wail. Change your laughter to mourning and your joy to gloom. 10 Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up.
We were made for such a time as this.
